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My name is Torivan Baker and I am 27 years old. We went back and forth from Turkey to Syria because we were not comfortable anywhere. The Turkish army wouldn't treat us well. So after that we decided to come to Greece. In Turkey I was constantly in the hospital because I was all the time sick. They couldn’t understand us. We have come now to Greece but we don’t know when we will leave again. I made a Turkish ID card so I could visit the hospital and to be hospitalized since we didn’t have enough money. They wouldn’t accept us and they treated us very bad. This is the reason we came to Greece.Both of my births were similar to me. In Syria we had the war but here I'm still not stable and comfortable (in Greece). For me this is the same thing. I had a C-section in Syria in a hospital in a city called Afrine.My second baby was born in Greece. The hospital in Greece was better than Syria, but here they didn't give me a birth certificate for my baby. It is really hard being pregnant while fleeing from your country. I can’t explain it. Of course in the beginning I didn’t want to become pregnant because the conditions were very bad. We discussed with my husband that only if our conditions would get better I would become pregnant, but they were actually getting worse. But I got pregnant and then I left. I am not lucky at all, neither are my children. You know the sea is very scary and we used to hear frightening things about it so we were really anxious.I had my son all the time in my arms but because we were afraid we were vomiting throughout the journey. I was constantly crying and I was thinking that we will all drown. It was a very scary moment and we stayed in the boat for about three and a half hours. One thing that relaxed us is the fact that my brother was with us and he was also the driver of the boat. This was a small relief. I started thinking that in case we drown, will I save myself or my baby? Will my husband be able to save anybody?

My name is Torivan Baker and I am 27 years old.  

We went back and forth from Turkey to Syria because we were not comfortable anywhere. The Turkish army wouldn't treat us well. So after that we decided to come to Greece. In Turkey I was constantly in the hospital because I was all the time sick. They couldn’t understand us. We have come now to Greece but we don’t know when we will leave again. I made a Turkish ID card so I could visit the hospital and to be hospitalized since we didn’t have enough money.  

They wouldn’t accept us and they treated us very bad. This is the reason we came to Greece. 

Both of my births were similar to me. In Syria we had the war but here I'm still not stable and comfortable (in Greece). For me this is the same thing. I had a C-section in Syria in a hospital in a city called Afrine. 

My second baby was born in Greece. The hospital in Greece was better than Syria, but here they didn't give me a birth certificate for my baby. It is really hard being pregnant while fleeing from your country. I can’t explain it. Of course in the beginning I didn’t want to become pregnant because the conditions were very bad. We discussed with my husband that only if our conditions would get better I would become pregnant, but they were actually getting worse.  

But I got pregnant and then I left. I am not lucky at all, neither are my children. You know the sea is very scary and we used to hear frightening things about it so we were really anxious. 

I had my son all the time in my arms but because we were afraid we were vomiting throughout the journey. I was constantly crying and I was thinking that we will all drown. It was a very scary moment and we stayed in the boat for about three and a half hours. One thing that relaxed us is the fact that my brother was with us and he was also the driver of the boat. This was a small relief. I started thinking that in case we drown, will I save myself or my baby? Will my husband be able to save anybody?