My name is Arij Ismael I am 23 years old and I am from Homs, Syria. I am married, I have a son and today I am pregnant. I left Syria because of the airstrikes and bombings.
I got married in Syria and two months later my husband got injured because of an airstrike.
We left immediately to Lebanon and we finally stayed for two years. He had ten operations but unfortunately none of them helped him. In Lebanon I got pregnant to my son, but because our situation was very bad we decided to leave. My son was one year old when we left Lebanon.
The moment I had my son it was very hard for me, because we had to walk a lot. Such a strange feeling. It was especially hard when the Turkish police started firing on us in the mountains. Until today it has been very difficult. We can't work to take care of him. Nowadays many people are still trying to leave but we do not want to do this because of our child.
I don't feel stronger now that I am pregnant again. I feel that it is going to be more difficult because our situation is not getting better and I have my husband who is injured and a son to take care off. We are ten people in our room and we always have problems whether it is inside or outside. If I give birth here, my son won't have his own room, and I will not be able to provide also a room for my newborn. We also can't make an appointment with the hospital because it is full.
It is not just the fact of being relaxed in a place, my son was born without knowing his own country and as for this child I believe it will be even harder because at least in Lebanon (for my son) I had family to help me, now I am on my own. My son also doesn't have a birth certificate. We don't even have a marriage certificate! Because we got married during the war.